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2011-04-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

I had sparring today. I swear i was aggresive but my stamina , damn bad. Lately i've not been doing cardio much coz i have high metabolism rate which means i can burn fats easily. That's why i don't do cardio that much. During sparring , i swear i was holding back. I just feel bad hitting my opponent. The only time when i don't feel bad hitting anything is when i'm angry and which i'm controlling it. I don't want to use my anger.

Plus i injured my ankle -.-' . I'm secretly limping. sshh. don't tell anyone.

2011-04-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

Maths really bores me man. The reason why is because i need to pay full attention in class because it's not like science where u can just read n understand but maths, no!

Today Biomanufacturing and environment contamination lesson was crap. The lecturer was making lame jokes and we were laughing sacarstically at his jokes! and he doesn't even know. oh yes plus its a combine lecture with a y3 class! and there's this chinese girl wearing a singlet and hot pants! wth! and she's like so freaking revealing! she sat in class with her legs kind of at her chair bt her knee facing the ceiling. i swear , i can't concentrate man! pfft! Ahlian! see la! this is the result of a dickfest class :(

2011-04-18T21:17:00.002+08:00

First day of school and i am already feeling sleepy on the first lesson. Point taken : i need to sleep early the day before if the next morning class starts @ 8/9am! On the bright side , it was a cheerful rainy morning and the lecturer's so far are great Insyaallah!

And i smell Freshies all over the campus! Omg! So arrogant eh me! tsk3... must not be arrogant. Plus there's a new student in my class. His GPA last yr was 4! Hmm... somehow i don't feel inferior or anything. Well i think it's good. when i was in upper sec before , i used to be the top of my class n somehow i feel inferior when someone beats my mark or something. WEll i don't want to be the arrogant snobbish proud kid. I just want to be the nice descent humble guy. Insyaallah!

And i'm so excited about the modules! Finally i'm learning something related to science and most importantly , MEDICAL!!! COOL RIGHT!!! HAHAHA If my ITP at hospital more cool sia! N top of that , i'm being appointed to be the class rep! last yr asst class rep, hmm... nvm got hikmah behind it.

Must start to be more hardworking , responsible , no more slack attitude. Gotta do my best this yr till i graduate! Insyaallah!

2011-04-15T20:42:00.003+08:00

k finally. The last week of holiday is coming to an end. Had a very tiring perfomance week but it's awesome! Today's staff really was great too! Every performance , my nervousness to stand in front of a crowd gets lesser and lesser and then finally! poof! gone!

haiya.. lazy update uh. k bye

2011-04-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

Lately when i see girls , i ignore. Hmmph! I dont trust them. Actually to be more specific, i dont trust love. I hate love. I must be a loser. I hate rejections :( anyway juz gt back frm practice. Tmr will be the freshmen orientation party. We re gonna rock e stage man! Im gonna hype e crowd until they get high!! N of coz e food! Im so gonna consume them!

2011-04-12T20:34:00.002+08:00

Really has been tiring for the past few days. Training and performance all together in this week.

Really not looking forward for school. I don't know why. And hot bitches in my school , sorry ain't interested. Really hard to get me hit on a girl really. Anti girl.

all the same. Giving me problems. hmmph

2011-04-10T17:56:00.001+08:00

i swear it's so hard to be a completely good person i tell u. I'm too weak. I can hear Syaitan's whisper to my ear.

2011-04-09T23:54:00.002+08:00

My bronchitis is really getting bad to worst :( I can't breathe that well... Well that's my secret. Yes i do respiratory problem although i do look kind of fit but it takes me so hard to breathe.

2011-04-09T19:00:00.002+08:00

hmm... today was a bad start. Went for soccer early morning and played the first game terrible because my body felt so tired. It's as if i was still sleeping. Then i ask for a sub because i played really really terrible the first around. Seriously the most terrible performance so far. First reason i was frustrated , second reason there's things in my mind which i can't seem to let it out.

But i managed to cool myself down. Haha and i played better but still not at best. I'm better off being my hyper self mode. :)

Ate lunch but i couldn't finish my meal. Stomach ain't feeling so good.

Alright let me plan ahead. Study both duniawi and iqrawi. Get a motor license. Get a job. Get a bike! Well that's my plan for now. Ya Allah guide me through alright? :) Hmm... when my birthday arrives , and i still got no money for a bike license. I'll try to beg mom to sponsor and reason out with her. But i'll try to save my money myself. $800 by july 5th? Insyaallah

Do not despair because Allah is with me :) Keep up the Doa. Insyaallah one day :) Just be patient Danial. Orang Sabar Tidak Rugi remember?

Alright till the next time. xai qian!!

2011-04-08T23:51:00.001+08:00

i'm more determine yo! hope nothing will bring me down this time plz! u want prove right? i'll show u prove yo!!! hahaha give me time jek!

2011-04-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

u know what. I'm thinking of her... yes it's her Rebecca Black. Why ppl hate her so much sey? :( i pity her la. Haiyo. Y i'm such a goodie2... I easily pity ppl. Easy trust , easily fake.

2011-04-08T20:11:00.002+08:00

im starting to think that getting back on blogger is kinda a good thing. At least i can share my life with my readers , even if there's none , i feel like im sharing it to someone. A place to let it all out.

Let's not talk about what i did today shall we? I feel like it's redundant , really.

First of all , there's this girl i knew from FB. When i first send her a friend request. I swear i didn't expect that she would accept me because she's from a religious school and also an all girl school. But to my suprise , she did accepted me. From then on i chatted with her and add her on msn n twitter.

I kind of got to know her better than nothing. Got to know we've got lots in common , like we both love photography which then cums editing n stuff and there was a day where i was angry which i also got to know that she was also angry coz she posted her thoughts on twitter. Hmm... She sms me if i felt better the next day. For a stranger , i felt that she actually care. Well i really don't know if she did care but for a stranger to msg me if i'm better , well that must be something right? :/ Moving on , the more i chat with her , the more common things we figured. Well to be honest i forgot some coz i really have STM! DAMN IT!

Its weird. Falling for someone u've never met before , Dann? How could this be even happening. Everywhere i go , i'm thinking of her. My life is really dull i tell you. In search of a girl who has the package ( prays , tudung , nice , kind , cute , looks , clever ) Pfft. Looks is second to me. Actually i go along with my heart. What's the use of having looks when i can't even get the girl i want.

My past few exs , all were a mistakes. The first is kinda slutty , second got a bad heart and third! Hmmph! she changed the worst and she doesn't pray :( Really and when i find one that i tot she was the one , she's attached. Starting to give up on love but i came across her on fb. Someone once told me in malay ' orang sabar tidak rugi ' meaning ppl who wait n have patience will not have losses. Every girl i encounter confirm got problem. Plus i don't fall for girls easily. I'm kinda choosy.

Arif told me that i would never going to get her because we've got too many similarities. Just like 'like charges repel and unlike charges attract'. Sigh. Every moment , her image is here in my mind. IT's as if i known her for long. :/ If it's fated , then it won't go anywhere. I am really in an unarm state right now. i Dont know what to do next really. wait? wait again as usual?! till when Dann!

Ya Allah , only u know how i feel n u're the best of all planners. I hope there's a good outcome behind all this misery.

that's it. i'm done

2011-04-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

i wonder if she really is the one... We've got so many in common...

2011-04-07T19:07:00.003+08:00

Wasup yo! I actually didn't went back to sleep after Subuh(dawn prayers)! Was up all the way watching Ocean's twelve on my PC and then played PES on it. Plus im waiting for Arif to wake up so we can go to the gym. I ate breakfast late. Ard 2? Since Mom work , there's not much food in the kitchen and i always gets hungry in the middle of the night. :(

Hmm.. AFter gym , i went to JP. Look for a white shirt to wear for next week performance for the Freshies. Hmm... i can't really shop so much la. No money. i got $200 in my bank for this whole month to spend on food to survive! And i'm a big spender when it comes to food! Coz when im hungry , no one can stop me! munch munch munch!!! And the shirt cost $32.70 after discount. Affordable anot ? idk. long time never go shopping. Hmm... dislike asking my parents for money uh. I feel bad that's why i want to work so i can earn the money myself and also , get a motorbike license! ACtually i don't want a bike license instead i want a car license but i got a plan for it.

Get that license and work at pizza hut as a delievery boy. Then in that way got money to buy my own bike n stuff. See! Am i clever or am i clever!! hahahaha k la!!

CHIN CHAO!!!

somebody ask me questions can? hahaha

2011-04-07T12:25:00.001+08:00

somebody ask me questions can? hahaha

Answer here

2011-04-05T16:18:00.002+08:00

hi! it's been really long since i kind of post something. Someone ask me to start posting again. hahaha.ok let's start off from all the way in the morning.
I woke up early today like 6.20am as usual but this time round i kind of went out early just to watch my band SYF performance. the last time i wake up this early n bath was like what? 2 yrs ago? haha so sleepy like hell.

I was kind of impress with my juniors uh. Hope they don't drop to Silver. And i was super impress with Ang Mo kio band! DAmn good i tell u! results will be like at 6 today. Wish them all ze best!

was wondering if u girls had ever have a crush on me? (for girls only)

2011-03-06T16:03:00.001+08:00

was wondering if u girls had ever have a crush on me? (for girls only)

Answer here

what's ur first impression of me?

2011-03-03T23:32:00.001+08:00

what's ur first impression of me?

Answer here

what's ur first impression of me?

2011-03-03T21:19:00.001+08:00

what's ur first impression of me?

Answer here

What will y0u d0 if y0u f0und 0ut that y0ur partner is cheating 0n y0u?

2010-08-26T17:13:00.001+08:00

Firstly i would find out the real truth if my partner is really cheating on me. Secondly , i would break up with that person coz i don't date player.

Ask me anything

2010-08-24T12:15:00.002+08:00

I planned to wake up early today to go to the bank and the optical shop to put a name on my GO! card and repair my specs which is crook for quite some time. I've been hit by a soccer ball on the face that is why my specs is crook. At least it doesn't broke. I'm dead if it broke. Mom is going to kill me. I can't wear contact lenses because i have astigmatism. Even if i wear one , my vision will still be blur. So I only wear my contact lenses when doing sports or something. Although they do sell contact lenses that will cover astigmatism but it will be very costly. Around $1oo plus. I don't think i can afford it now. Maybe one day when i grow up when i have the money.

Anyway I am watching the Youth Olympic Games Table tennis match. It's between Singapore and Russia both women and men's games. Sadly Isabelle from women Singapore team loss to Russia. Seriously it was a close match i tell you. Both of them were tied with 2 all and the last round she is just out of luck. No matter , I think Singapore men table tennis would have a chance! He's damn good!

Anyway random , below are my dream GF! hahahah!

2010-08-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

Hello readers. I don't think anyone is reading accept for a few handful. Guess i'm not that famous. Oh well , anyway i woke up at 12pm today! Omg! So freaking late! Well at least for me. So unhealthy you know. I did a clean up of my closet. Going to throw all my unused clothes. One of them was my school uniform. It really makes me recall my past memories. Everybody's evolving. Everybody's changing. Everybody's moving on. Soon when we get older and have kids , there's no returning back to the younger days where we can hang out with friends , when parents are still young and when parents used to take care of their kids. Soon it's going to be my turn to take care of them. Feel kind of sad now. Not sad sad but just sad as in the feeling of getting old and everything will change as time comes.

Anyway below are the few hairstyle that i was thinking of getting. I need your opinion. Do comment it on my chat box. Will be waiting

ashton kutcher

alex evans

zac efron(1)

zac efron(2)

2010-08-22T15:33:00.004+08:00

It's already Sunday and tomorrow will be officially the last week of the YOG holiday. I'm going to be deeply saddened. Going to miss all the foreigners! Plus of course the interesting games put up by the competitors. They are so lucky to have been chosen to represent their country for the YOG.

Anyway i didn't went anywhere today. Feel kind of lazy to roam about my neighbourhood. Yesterday I went Geylang with my dad and managed to drop my nenek house just beside Geylang's market to break our fast. Well my outfit cost $90. Thanks to Dad! hehe! Of course Dad's outfit cost more than mine. His outfit cost was $165. Well we bought it from Miss Saigon. Anyway Geylang was pack with Malays! Not muslim alright.

Anyway i've been wanting to change my hairstyle to Side Swept Bangs but i don't know how to. I'm not sure whether if i were to go to a saloon , they would be able to change my hair. Well i seriously don't know. Need to check it out before Hari Raya arrives. I was also wondering if they can make my hair look shiny instead of my current hair(DRY!) Anyway was thinking of dying my hair too. I still wants my hair too look black. Maybe dark brown?

Anyway below are pictures of my wanting hair... well it's Zac Efron's hairstyle

Oh yes , I'd watch the basketball game between Singapore and Panama. I was impressed with Singapore! They won 33-20 if i'm not wrong. They put up a good game. I look up for their biographies to check the athlete's height and Damn it they are giants i tell you! I'm so sad. I want to grow at least 1.75m tall. I hope i'm still growing. Keep praying to god.

2010-08-20T10:47:00.003+08:00

Hey readers! I had an awesome night yesterday. Went out to break fast with my Ex Shuqun friends. It was a blast. We met at around 3 plus but moved at 4 plus because waiting for late people. Our original plan was to eat at Zam Zam which is in front of the Sultan mosque but one of us suddenly feels that she doesn't wants breakfast there. After that we were all like thinking where to go. We head down to Marina Square first. Planning to play either pool/bowling. End up we didn't play either of them. Sharizal and me went to play the arcade. Kicked his ass in Tekken twice. Hahaha

Finally we decided to stick to our original plan which is to break fast at Zam2. The best part of the outing was at Marina where we took photos and at the esplanade rooftop for me. We had loadz of laughter. It's always getting fun when it's coming to the end of our outing.

I'll be going for Muay Thai formal training today. Suddenly feel so lazy. If the more i don't go , the more i'll feel lazy. I didn't went for the past two training. I should go today.

Anyway i had a wonderful dream. Lately i've been dreaming of my teachers and my past events about them. I dreamt about Mdm Siti. Everytime i see , she would be carrying loadz of stuff and i would just rush to her and help her carry those stuff but in my dream , i was scolded by her for asking her if she needs a helping hand. This was a sad dream. Second dream was about Mr Su. I don't quite remember about what but i remembered it wasn't a bad dream. Third dream was Mrs Poh. Hahaha! Dreamt about her scolding the whole class for not handing in our works. Still remember the days. Last dream was about Mrs Sunil. She's the most hip teacher i've ever had in my secondary school days. I dreamt about her ... Damn i forgot what i dreamt about her.

Anyway i will post some pictures on the blog soon. My Camera is out of batt so yea i need to recharge the battery first.

2010-08-18T12:26:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! I woke up at 10.30am for today. It's the earliest timing i woke up so far this month. Anyway started to revise my basic maths on logarithm. I really feel that it's very confusing but i think with enough practice , i should be able to get the hang of it. It's always difficult in the beginning. Just like when babies were born. They start off with crawling and then slowly they are able to walk and then run. Same goes for everything. It's the matter of how fast you learn. What's important is that you don't give up. Finish what you've started or else you'll regret it in the future. If i could turn back time , i want to finish my Taekwondo. Just one more grading and i'll get a black belt. What a waste it is.

Anyway i've change a few songs on the blog. Plus i've deleted some of my links which is no longer in use or set to invited readers. Anyway i want to train so badly! I'm desperate to be the best. :( It's alright. Everything takes time. Just like my Muay Thai master said , learn slowly and get the techniques right before you can be the best. :D

2010-08-17T23:21:00.003+08:00

I've been watching YOG taekwondo games recently. Damn it's super awesome. I feel like going back to my old taekwondo days and get that black belt first before i quited. Only stop at black tip. One more grading and i'll get black belt. Damn it. Feel so wasted but what to do. Life has to go on. It's alright. I will do my best in my Muay Thai and MMA.

Anyway here are some kicks that i need to master perfectly.

BASIC KICKS :
-Front kick
-Side kick
-Push kick
-Round kick
-Roundhouse kick
-Hook kick

Advance Kicks :
-Spinning Back Kick
-Jumping spinning back kick
-360 spinning back kick *

-Spinning hook kick
-Jumping spinning hook kick *
-360 spinning hook kick *

-Double roundhouse kick
-Jumping round kick *
-Tornado kick *
-Double front kick

* means i need to practice more

well wish me all the best guys. I really want this.

Recently i've been watching kwonkicker's video on youtube. FYI he's a taekwondo fighter. Damn i'm so inspired by him. How i wish i could kick like him. Soon i will. Needs to practice super hard! COme on i can do it!

2010-08-16T12:44:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to revise for my end semester test. I'm not really doing my best though. Just a borderline study. I'm not bothered to study too hard. Guessed i'm demotivated by someone but who cares. It's my life , my decision. I make my own destiny. Anyway life's been great for me. Trying to make my life much more optimistic. I had diarrhea in the morning until now. Well i think my stomach's getting better.

So lately i've been staying at home either studying or doing some other things which i can't seems to be able to recall but mostly it's studying. I'm in love with the month of Ramadhan. Although there's much thing that i'm not able to do like intensive training. It's wonderful how food is an important need in our daily live. It seems to me that without food , there's lesser things for me to do. It's just seems lesser. I love Ramadhan because somehow every night i feel very peaceful maybe due to my night prayers. Well i hope god accepts my fast.

Anyway last saturday , i went down to NUS to watch the IVP muay thai tournerment. It was extremely awesome. I was so inspired and motivated to be a better fighter. To be exact , i want to be the best! I'm so proud of my school. They won 1st in ranking among the four school. Nice! I was thinking of going to thailand for a 1 month training. We'll see how it goes.

Alright , i think i should continue with my studying. Until next time. :D

2010-08-12T22:57:00.001+08:00

Nice , i bought a new bag. Love it. It cost $80.10. Before discount it was 89.00 dollars. Solat 20 rakaat trawih today. That's good. Went to the YOG celebration just now but didnt' fully stayed through out the whole event , went home at 6.30pm. Saw this white malay girl i think! So so cute sia! I think the next time i see her or something , i'm gonna like make a move man! Cey like real... hahaha dream on dann the mann

2010-08-12T10:39:00.002+08:00

Wah i've got an epic dream just now! Here goes. I was on my way to my girlfriend house in the taxi , was sending my gf actually. Anyway we got sabotage in the middle of nowhere. Got to know that the taxi driver was a ghost! He attack my gf. I tried to knock him away but he can pass thru me! Damn! Than i pulled my gf away and we ran towards her block. I did some ninja stuff and i manage to hit the ghost. Now he can't penatrate thru me anymore. Then i did my ninja stuff and attack him till he die. My gf was safe and he's dead! wohoo! what an epic dream. If only i was a real ninja just like in naruto! cool man!

Hmm i'm going to school later to the gym. and after that i'll be having yog thing later on. Actually i just want to get the goodie bag and the shirt that's all.

2010-08-11T12:32:00.003+08:00

It's the first day of the fasting month. Well i had a great sahur. Yesterday's terawih prayers, i'm proud to say that i did 20 rakaat! First time in my life i think. Actually nothing to be proud one uh. I think my plan for the day is to study my engineering materials and get the facts at least i'm not lost or something.

I don't think i'll be going for MMA and Muay Thai during the fasting month and the hari raya festival. And i need to gain more weight again. I bet my weight has dropped due to my sickness last week. It's okay. Slow and steady wins the race.

oh yea and i need to stop smoking . Seriously drained my chakra man! I neeed to build up my stamina back. Stamina is very hard to sustain. It's not a training thing. It's a sustantial thing. u need to be consistent in jogging. a week of not jogging , ur stamina will go away just like that. poof!

2010-08-06T14:59:00.002+08:00

It's been a week of me having fever. It starts from saturday and until now , i'm not fully recovered yet. Luckily it's the end of school and it's the start of the youth olympic games. Today at 2am in the morning , i was awoken up by my sudden rise of my body temperature. Suddenly felt cold and at the same time hot also. I'm like sweating a lot. I tried to sleep and upon the time reaching the morning prayers , i can feel that my temperature is decreasing. I feel better than before. i can walk and all. Doesn't feel that i have a high fever but when i took my temperature , it was 38.2 degrees! omg! means in the night , it was worst! Then i prayed frist. after that went down to take my medicine.

Wen to school , sigh. i hate this teacher. My thermofluids teacher! lousy sia! Oh ya i saw the girl that i say cute! she super cute sia! tan skin all! wah i want her!!! love herr la!!! hhaahaha! me and thoughts -.-!

2010-08-04T14:56:00.002+08:00

i went to see the doctor again this morning accompanied by my Dad. It was a chinese doctor but he could speak a bit of malay. At first i didn't know he was chinese. I had doubts if i should speak with him in malay or english but i stick my conversation with him in english.

It's been three days i didn't went to school. 3 days at home surfing the net about Islamic video. I've discoverd something new today. The planet Niburu aka planet X. It has something related with the mayans predicting about 2012. Scientist discovered this new planet in 1984. It says it's heading towards earth. Hmmm i don't know about that but i'm praying for the best.

Yea and i look through my old secondary year book and report books. Been analysing my height. When i was sec 1 , i was 1.55m. Sec 2 , 1.61 m and sec 3 1.65m. Sec 4 was 1.68m. The biggest growth spurt was between sec 1 n 2. If i knew , i would have drink lots of milk during that period. I hope i'm still growing. Currently my height is 1.69m. I want to reach at least 1.75m or better yet reach my dad's height 1.78m. Hmm Dad used to tell me that he was ard the same height as me when he was my age. it's when NS where he grow to 1.78m. Hmm... i hope i'll be like him. I don't mind being short now and then grow during NS. I'm still praying

2010-08-03T09:56:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i really blog about myself. I've fallen sick today since saturday. I've catch a stomach flu on friday but i didn't know that it was a stomach flu till i went to see doctor yesterday. It feels weird uh. First time experiencing a stomach flu. I've got no appetite to eat. It's not the falling in love of no appetite to eat. It's just that ur stomach doesn't feel so good. I'm hoping for myself to recover by tmorrow! I want to go to school. Luckily its' the last week of school. Hmm... Been slacking so much lately. I read up on my old post. Damn i really feel different. I feel like i've changed. Hahaha! How human changes while going thru stages of life without us remembering or realising that we are evolving.

I've just watched the hisdustan movie called 3 idiots. Nice movie. Somehow inspired to study hard. Anyway i was surfing ebay for boxing glove and my eyes are glued to this glove.

see the link below:
http://cgi.ebay.com.sg/TOP-KING-Empower-Creativity-Boxing-Gloves-TKBGEM-01-/220499253065?cmd=ViewItem&pt=Boxing_Gloves&hash=item3356c79749

2010-07-21T19:30:00.002+08:00

life seriously is so suckie for the moment. Hate it so much. I just want to live my own life. For now what i'm in love is my martial arts. Maybe it's my passion. Oh well , violence. Everyday i'm downloading UFC videos coz megaupload have download limits unless u sign up for it. MMA is still a bit boring for me when comes to learning striking because they are going through the basic which i already have learn in muay thai and taekwondo before. Next week is Brazilian jujitsu week! it's something new for me and i love it. Looking forward to it.

Damn overheard conversation from parents that they wants to move house? whatever reason for. Dad wants to move at the Diyana house there. so effing boring! fuck la! why must move house sia! then move at that area! so effing boring sia!!! CCB!

Hmm... i just want to be a good fighter. Whatever reason for i don't know. i just love it. So if u ppl think i'm a freak , by all means la. Sigh.. at least i can release my tantrum there or something.

Been learning videos from youtube and UFC. Anferson Silva is the thing now! There are a few fav vids where i keept going to wtch which is , kwonkicker , rick tew , nintaijutsu , brazilian jujitsu , tito ortiz and etc.

Damn i'm going to jog and train later. amigos!

2010-07-04T22:49:00.003+08:00

I seriously hate Singapore. Typical life of a singaporeans is to study , get a good job and then marry! I rather live in England or somewhere else where i can play proffesional soccer and not being married. I don't mind. Marriage is like fading away from my dictionary. I think i'm going to be single like forever. Been so stressed up lately. Gotten lots of projects and reports do! Need lots of catching up to do with studies. Damn i hate poly life.

Went for Muay Thai last friday. It was superbly awesome! I seriously love it. Trained super hard but not enough. I signed up for MMA recently. Can't wait for the training. I think tomorrow i'll be heading down to the gym. Damn i hate Singapore!

2010-06-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

Holiday is over. School has started. What a drag. Actually recently i've been starting back to go to the gym. Actually i've stop gymming but after talking to AMIRA MOHNI , i realised and think all over again , i guessed i should go back to the gym. Been to the gym lately. Felt so shag after getting home.

Hmm... Assignments have been bombarded. Hate it so much. There a few reports. Luckily it's a group report but still it sucks. Anyway presentation is coming in two weeks time.

Got back my papers but not all.

I'll update my results after all my papers are given back to me. :&

2010-06-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

i'm having my holiday now but i've been sick since friday till now. went to the doctor yesterday and he predicts that i'll be alright by monday. well i really hope i'll recover by tomorrow. Life has been boring for me. Typical singapore life. Singaporeans just have a standard life unlike life in other countries. Sigh. Study , get a good job and marry. Boriingg...

2010-05-26T15:23:00.002+08:00

want to look at my lappy desktop?

2010-05-24T20:26:00.001+08:00

sigh! today is the start of week 6! about 1 more weeks to exam. I'm so not in exam mood :(

2010-05-22T23:27:00.002+08:00

hey i'm back from the dead? Have not been blogging lately. Kind of lazy to blog. Anyway i'm not into gym anymore. Simply because there's something else that defeats my purpose to go gym. The reason for me going to the gym is to keep fit and for self defense. Since i'm taking up muay thai classes , no more gym in my dictionary.

Every friday it's going to be tough day for me. That 2 and a half hour is hell! But again like Muhammad Ali said , Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion. I'm having muscle aches due to yesterday's training. Damn it and i;m having a slight fever.

School is boring for me as usual. Not as fun as before. Not as cheerful as before though. Maybe lately i'm stress? or maybe sick? Well who cares. Anyway MST (mid semester test) is coming. I can tell that next semester would be much worst than now. Well wish me luck with my life. :)

2010-05-12T22:58:00.003+08:00

poly life is seriously very tiring. Pack with so many events at school. I have to squeeze myself in the MRT every single morning except for friday because school starts late.

Went for soccer trial today. Damn they only choose 5 out of those 100 people? i was the 6th.

4 more weeks and exams come. Hmm.. mechanical engineering is starting to get confusing. I hope i'll be able to cope.

2010-05-10T20:18:00.002+08:00

Where do i begin? Let's start with chelsea winning the EPL! I don't like it. :( Today newpaper's front page was CHELSEA 8 - 0 win against WIGAN! SUPER DISLIKE! Anyway man u was only one point away! Damn it!

I've been feeling so tired lately. super shack man!

2010-05-07T11:20:00.001+08:00

This year is not a good year for me though. it's really been tough for me

2010-05-03T21:32:00.001+08:00

Had a long day today. End class at 4.00pm. Went for rock climbing after school. IT's really a good exercise

2010-05-02T21:47:00.002+08:00

Have not been sleeping a lot these days. Had an interesting and also tiring weekend. Went to Grandma's house early saturday morning. Went to Haiqal's house at around 4pm for his kenduri. After that me and my click went out to JP to hang out for a while. hahaha actually it's till late 11.30. REach home @ around 12am. After that i went to meet Sharizal to go to mosque. Planned to sleep overnight.

We decided to walk to the mosque instead as it's already late and i think there is no busses left. LOL! It was great seriously. Syazrul was there too a the mosque. Awesome night. Played PES 09 on my lappy. I slept at around 4am. Woke up at 5.30am for morning prayers. After that went back up for a short nap but it didn't really turn out to be a nap.

After that reach home at around 8.20am. Slept for awhile till 9.20am. Went to Woodlands library @ 10 for our CDIO group discussion. Thank god we have a solution. HOping nw for tomorrow's CDIO to run smooth!

Oh yes i think there' no hope for man u. Chelsea's trashing liverpool! Damn it

2010-04-28T20:07:00.002+08:00

Today was awesome. End school at 11am. Had CCA fair after school. The sports hall was so pack with students. There are so many CCAs too! I was down to only two CCAs at first. It was Muay Thai and Silat! There was a Muay Thai sparing showcase. Seriously it's damn scary. Silat was nice too. It's super nice seriously!

So i was in super dilemma between silat and muay thai. Finally i chose muay thai because first it is practical in a real fight. Secondly the fee is cheap compared to outside muay thai. Thirdly it's only fri and sat.

I also chose gym club too. It was kind of last minute. The reason for me choosing this is because i want to buff up myself. I don't want to be so thin. Yea hope this gym club really helps me. The training starts next monday @ 5.30pm.

2010-04-26T22:26:00.002+08:00

Let's start with school. School is alright for now maybe because i don't want to start thinking about my studies too much. It's not that i totally do not care about my studies, i still do care about it but not so much because i don't want to get stress over it. New subjects , new formulas and new facts is all difficult for me to absorb. It's alright though because i'm much more optimist than i used to be before.
School is really tiring but it's alright. I will get get use to it.

CCA orientation is coming. I think i have made up my mind on what cca i should be joining. It's going to be Muay Thai. A form of a combat martial arts. Reasons for me choosing this is because firstly i want it for self defense. I can protect myself and most importantly my love ones. Secondly , i want to find something that can make me fit. Second choice of CCA would be floorball/hockey i guess. Was considering paintball too but i heard that you have to pay for your own equipment. Hmm it's going to cost me a booms!

Anyway recently my specs broke. Currently using my second specs. Its grey in colour. I feel that it looks weird on me. Well i have to like use it for the mean time until i get a new specs or contact lenses. There's a few things in my mind that i want to buy. First is the contact lens/specs. Second would be a black shirt from freshbox. Thirdly, hmm i don't know. Hahaha! I guess i'll have to wait for next month when my next allowance comes in.

Recently , grandpa is admitted to hospital. Hope he is fine now. Sometimes i wonder will i be admitted to hospital when i'm old? Let's just pray for the best from god. :)

Anyway yesterday , i went to JP to do my assignment at starbucks. Few of my friend came down too just to hang out at the same time. Anyway got a free Haagen Dazs ice cream from Aisyah! It's really nice of her plus the ice cream is mouth watering seriously. Heavenly! :)

2010-04-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

mental note. never get angry again because one thing when ure angry, u ain't thinking straight. Ur emotional will engulf u and when once u realise ur mistakes , u'll regret it. sigh.

ya allah bantu aku ya allah macam bagaimana engkau bantu kekasihmu ya allah.

2010-04-21T20:00:00.002+08:00

School was awesome today although class started at 9 but i came earlier at 8. Hahaha! had absolute fun man today. Lecturer was fun today unlike yesterday. Seriously super boring. Can die from boredom. Anyway currently here's the ranking of the subjects which is easy for me.

1.Mechanical 1
2.Engineering Materials
3.Engineering technology

After school , me n frens went to eat at foodcourt 6. hahaha cannot eat la sia. Eye candy dude seriously. Hahaha! Anyway after that went to hang out at hilltop. Had fun! alright after that went to the gym. Nice.

2010-04-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

Seriously i'm feeling super shagged right now. Classes were super boring today and it's only day 2. Seriously had no mood for class today. 4 hours of boring lecture. It sucks! Anyway after school today which i end kind of early like 12, me and some of my classmates went to eat at foodcourt 2. Hahaha actually we kind of plan to eat at foodcourt 3 but it's super pack as usual. Actually every foodcourt is pack. After lunch , we went to the main library.

Super epic! Me and my friends surf facebook and one of us have to like recommend one chick at a time. So when it was my turn , they were like wtf! Dann where's ur taste! hahaha! it was effing hilarious! Serious we were like laughing so kind of soft loud. hahaha!

Hmm... Studies been hard for me. Actually i've learnt two new subjects called Engineering Materials and Engineering technology. Seriously it's super new. I'm so lost especially engineering tech. The lecturer teaches as if we already know the stuff. Damn i hate it. Starting to feel worried already. :(

2010-04-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

Today is officially my first day at Singapore Poly! Lessons were superb for today. Basic maths was simple because it's basic like duh. Then i had Thermofluids class. Well today was just the briefing so Lecturer kind of let us go off early. Had no lessons from 12pm - 3pm! Awesommee! Then i had Engineering maths! Wah that i have a bit of a problem. It's a new subject so i'm kind of blur at the start of course. Maybe i have to read up more on that.

2010-04-06T22:15:00.002+08:00

Went to the gym this morning with Hisyam. Saw bibi! Yea must start to workout already. It's been a long time since i went to the gym. Cant even lift up 20 kg anymore. I mean i can but it feels heavy! It used to be light for me. Then got gay stare at me again! -.- super trauma

alright went home and have a deep sleep. Woke up , grandma was in my house! My sister sprain her leg and had to call my grandma to fetch her. Omg my grandma helped to iron all my clothes! I love her sey! Anyway went to meet the juniors to teach them maths. Hahaha had fun with them. I love maths! First i was a bit blur coz i'm kinda forget about maths but after a while i'm intelligent again! Nice!

2010-04-05T19:52:00.002+08:00

Today was a great day. At least better than yesterday. Early morning i played soccer with my peeps. Woke up kind of late but i reached there just in time. I admit today i was kind of off form. Maybe i'm tired for the past few days i guess.

In the afternoon , I went to watch the movie ''how to train your dragon in 3D''. It was superb! I feel like having one dragon for myself.Spent quite a lot for today. Hmm... i'm so going to save money already.

I went back for band at around 4 today. Spend great time with the bansmen! Miss hanging out with them! Miss the old times too. This wednesday is my Sports camp. I don't really look forward to it. Maybe not in the mood for camp i guess.

Currently my PrepMAths is on lesson 4! 2 more lessons and i'm done. Still got a lot more to go.

2010-04-04T22:18:00.002+08:00

hmm... today nothing much really. Woke up kinda late today at 11am. In the afternoon , i went down to JP to hand my friend the camp list for this coming wednesday. i don't really look forward for the camp. Actually i want to go but i don't want to do the cheer and all that. I'm not that kind of person. Sorry campers! I just want to get new friends and the experience. Walk around JP for awhile. Nothing much really. Actually tonight's plan was to head down to Lake park till midnight but feeling kinda lazy. Not really in the mood. I'm not emo though. Just no kick you see. Can't wait for tomorrow soccer with old peeps. Hmm i was thinking if i should buy the EFX band thingy. 50 bucks! Hmm... save or spent? Alright anyway tomorrows plan is to play soccer in the morning and watch how to train a dragon in the afternoon and after that head down to band if there's time to take my SYF photo! Hmm alright that's it for today.

2010-04-03T22:55:00.002+08:00

My leg is so tired. Need to have a day rest. Training was great with the wet weather. Not so tiring. I still need more stamina and more speed. Played much better than previous training. Need to improve on my left leg. Hmm... Should i go and buy that EFX thing? If it really works , it will heal my bruises and fatique fast! I need to recover fast. Too many injuries.

I'm so sad over the loss of man u to chelsea. Rooney is not in the pitch due to his injuries. Nani and Macheda entered the game on 75th min. Alex ferguson what are you doing?! I'm so angry with the linesman! Drogba is supposed to be offside! Wait till they watch the replay! Boo !!!! So depress!

2010-04-03T09:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i really had a great time with the Chill Out group. It's not a big group. There's Alson , Elyemelia , Debbie , Siew Qin , Cherry , Xin yi and me. Hahaha it was a random outing by Xin yi. I think she's bored of school or something. First we planned to play basketball. Hahaha me playing basketball? Very awkward. Then our plan was disrupt by the rain so we went to Cherry's house to slack for awhile.

After the rain had ceased , we went down to play some balls! Sound so wrong uh? Very funny things happened la. The main point is i had a great time with them la. I miss the bandsmen! It's been a long time since i hang out with them. Xin Yi basket go sms 'i love u' to people using my phone! Guy also she sms! -.-'!

Then at night i head down to mosque for religious class. The mood of the class seems down today. Attendance was little too. Maybe it's a public holiday and they went for a family outing or something. Anyway at least i came. It's been a long time since i went for the class. I want to change my life. Hmm... need to start to make a difference. Wish me luck!

Anyway i had a dream! I don't know if i should call it a nightmare or not. I dreamt of her msging me that she love me! I thought it was real! Aaahhh! So depress when i woke up. Damn i can't deny that i still love her. I keep denying it but deep inside my heart i still do. I really miss her. Nevermind just don't be emo can already.

2010-03-28T11:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's training was tiring. Hmm... maybe it's because i only ate breakfast. Was so engrossed in playing Company Of heroes. Damn the germans are strong. They keep coming in with tanks. And i need more ammunitions to defend. Hmm... Anyway today i willl be having a match with TCFC. I'm kind of nervous. Formation 5-3-2. Can we do it? Hmm i hope so.

Nowadays i realised i'm kind of quiet a bit.

2010-03-25T01:04:00.005+08:00

Had a great kickstart today. Went out early for school. Had a briefing on the prepmaths! I'm so going to study! Starting with this sunday. After that i won't be going out anymore. Must discipline myself plus i can save money for my motor license.

I went 'out with syazz and family!' Got her Sister can already! Dortz... They treat me. Actually i don't know today i feel kind of having stomach upset. I don't know why sey. Damn i miss her. Syazz mom said something which kind of struck me. She said people who always be patient will not loss anything. Hmmm... i hope she's right.

When i got home , i accidentally took a nap. I dreamt about her! When i woke up kind of happy lar. Then mom got home and starts the nag. Waduh! Life's suck if this keeps going on. Why can't i have some tranquility at home. Anyway i went to the coffeshop to buy some chicken rice for my family. Was kinda in a good mood at that point of time coz keep thinking of her. Haha the auntie of the stall say i handsome. She's so random but it's good that she doesn't lie. Ok stop it! Hmm...

Will i be with her? Ok what? right? Hmmm... Me and my blindness in love. Sometimes I feel so wrong to love her. I don't know. I just feel so wrong to love people. Sometimes i would just close my eyes and start to try and forget the person before but everytime i'm trying to forget , actually i'm remembering that person right? Why must human love someone? Sometimes love's not the cure but a sickness.

I love just being quiet and think and observe my surrounding. U'll realise a lot. I mean i don't know why i'm like this also. K sabar je insyaallah doa + usaha = success...

Ya allah... tlg hambamu yang lemah nie ya allah.

2010-03-23T18:58:00.002+08:00

Work is kind of boring today. Time sleems to past slow today for me. Yes tomorrow i'm not working and going to school for A maths Briefing! Yes! Can't wait for tomorrow. Hmm... I bet i'll be going out tomorrow after the briefing! hahaha!

Alright today after work , went out with Rayu coz she want get free Ben N Jerry ice cream cone. ( jakun nyee...! ) Since i was in town so yea why not drop by right anyway it's been quite long since i didn't hang out with her. End up when we got there , the queue was super duper cuper looong! Typical Singaporeans! So willing to line up such a long queue. There wasn't only 1 line but a couple of lines! At last we didn't really queued up for it. I bought a new Shirt. Hmm... $45 bucks...

Anyway yea been watching some music videos lately. Recently watch was Jay Sean - Down down... Actually i've watched before but i kinda like the song so why not wathced again. Hmm... I want to have Body like Jay Sean... Personally he looks like an Indian to me. What do you think? Hahahaha!

Hmm.. Planning to jog at night but i'm feeling kind of letargic now. Due to going out the whole day.

2010-03-22T23:28:00.002+08:00

Mondays i hate mondays. It's the start of a new week. First and for most I'm feeling very happy for Mancehster United Performance yesterday! Man u 2 - Liverpool 1. Plus They are top of the table! Chelsea tied up with Blackburn. Aww! Hahaha! Anyway today nothing really interesting just that there's this super big customer! Just like BOOMER but he's hairy only. Alright i'm super bored at work. Getting resst less! Can't wait for this saturdays soccer training! Damn this sunday west pheonix against TCFC DIVISION B. I have no idea how are we going to go against them now. Oh yea and i miss her. Hmmm... Sigh me and my unbalance life.

2010-03-21T21:01:00.001+08:00

It's been a long time since I update my blog. I've been away for three days for my class chalet. I have lots of fun during my chalet. Every moment pass is a treasure to remember. Those are the beautiful moments that i can't forget. Anyway yea i'm lazy to blog now.

2010-03-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

I've got a bronchitis , terrible panda eyes and worst of all i'm limping. I feel like a handicap. Plus i miss her!

2010-03-14T07:19:00.002+08:00

Sunday. Don't you guys agree that time is ticking faster now. Signs of the judgement day.

I like being alone sometimes. When i'm alone just walking around , i'm quiet. Whenever i'm quiet , my mind isn't just going blank. I always look around observing people , nature and others and just learn from life. I see many good and bad people. Sometimes i smiled to myself and wonders why are we doing this things. That's where i learn.

Anyway yesterday i had a soccer match at marsiling. The place looks like a malaysia type of place if you know what i mean. Most of us recognised our opponents. Sadly we lost 3-1 but it was a nice game seriously rather than losing 10-1 with TCFC. I got a muscle cram at my left calf. It's super duper agonising i tell you when my calf got cram all of a sudden. You guys should try it sometimes. Now i'm limping. It feels so tiring walking around limping. Anyway i got to play as a left wing , centre mid and left forward. Personally , i think we played better for 2nd half. Our team has only 3 substitution but our opponent got quite a few. maybe 3 times more than us? I was doing fine when i'm in the position centre mid but Sharul ask for a change in position because he was tired already so i went up. When i was a left forward , there's this opponent of mine keep marking me. Everywhere i go he keep trailing me. Oh welll they always mark the key players.

So after the match at night , i went to Centris the condo above Jurong Point. It was Luqman who invited us. We were celebrating the March Babies Birthday. Happy Birthday to all those March Babies! Went home around 12 plus. Tsk mom so naggy. I really hate hate hate. I want grow up and have my own life!

You know what i'm feeling. I feel so 'i don't know'. Nevermind.

2010-03-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

hey it's been quite awhile since i last update my blog. Anyway i got a job and it's a great one too! I work on Monday to Friday at 8.30am - 1.00pm. My pay is like $6 per hour. Quite a lot. My job is to promote this NTUC membership to people who wants to make security pass. I've got a commission of $3 for every person who signs up for the membership. Most of the time my job is like slacking. I can sit there and enjoy the air con while listening to my mp3 but it's boring also if there's nothing to do.

I love this job because it trains me to talk to people and i can get more experience you see. Anyway lately i have been going home kind of late. Hahaha! Yesterday was fun! Went out with my primary school friends. The four of us had lots of laughter and yes Syazrul finally knows about it. Hope he help me. My bestfriend what must help.

Alright today i went for religious class at the mosque. I was 30 mins late but it turns out fine. Oh yes today my face was carve with smiles and smiles! Hmm... tomorrow i have a match at marsiling. Best of luck to us! May the best team win. Tomorrow night i'll be heading to centris. Luqman's party. He invited me. Aww i'm so touch seriously. Thanks (:

Anyway to those people who wants me to link you guys , sorry not at a moment. I'm kind of busy for this whole month. Hope you guys understand. Alright that is all.

2010-03-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

Damn i'm so tired today. Perhaps due to lack of sleep i guess. Went to the gym with Sharizal. I didn't really work out that much. Firstly , it's been a long time since i head down to the gym. I guess it's more than 2 weeks. The feeling of wanting to workout and the determination is like fading. Damn i lost 1kg! Weights getting heavier. Secondly , she suddenly came into my mind and i'm starting to miss her already which i don't want to! No! I said to myself that it's all in my mind. For awhile i was able to focus but i lost it again. I guess i really love her. Confess? Hmmm... i have no idea whether should i proceed with that. Patience.

LATER afternoon , i head down to SP with Syazrul and Andi to pay the fee for the focamp. Oh2 we bought SP t-shirts! $5 only cheap and dri fit. Hahaha dortz... And Andi kept falling while walking up the stairs! It was so hilarious! Hahaha! Anyway come to think about it, SP isn't really that big. It's like my secondary school. Kind of dull too but i hope the classroom will be great eh?

2010-03-07T22:44:00.001+08:00

Everyday i need to save up at least $10. I'm planning to save money so that next year i could get my driving license! Hmm.. i lazy update about my life. It's fine don't worry

2010-03-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

You know what , today was great. After subuh, i didn't sleep because i had to go for medical check up at 8.30am. I reached JP at around 8.35am. Satria and Syazrul was late! Well i'm the only who reach there first. Luck there's no injection or anything.

2010-03-05T07:06:00.002+08:00

I'm loving my new laptop. It's faster than my previous laptop and it's VISTA! Dortz... Hmmm... Later i'm going out at 8am to go for medical check up! Damn i forgot to ask my mom to top up my Ez link Card! What a sad life. Anyway yar in the afternoon heading down to band to help my junior. At night planning to go masjid. So long never go. Hmmm that's all

2010-03-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

5 tiring days working at expo and they say save the best for last but the last day at work was the worst. There's this ' supervisor ' ask me and my friend to packed off! What the fuck man. The only regret that i gave is that i didn't fought back. As if i let him step over me. Come to think again , we didn't made any thing wrong. I was so effing angry man. Feels like taking a shotgun and blast his balls!

Damn my stress tolerancy increases again. Damn i really hate this. My anger management is getting out of hand. Getting bad to worst and i think i have split personalities. Maybe not split but double. Yea so whatever

2010-02-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

Life is great with Allah. What did i do today? I think i woke up around 10 plus? I don't wuite remember. I use the PC for a while and then bath. Took my breakfast. I don't quite remember what i did in the morning. In the afternoon , i went to have my lunch at 3pm at Mr Teh Tarik alone as usual. Then head down to school for Concert Band. Nothing much really. Was planning to watch movie at night but due to some circumstances , we had to postphone the movie. Damn i really want to watch Percy Jackson. Maybe tomorrow i'll watch alone after my job interview. Oh yes please , i hope i'll get the job. Haiqal helped me today. Thanks! Don't tell anyone my secret. X)

2010-02-21T20:28:00.002+08:00

I had my soccer training yesterday. Let's talk what happened before i had my soccer training alright. In the morning around 10.30am , Mom , sis and me went to McDonald to have our Breakfast. After that i went to the gym with Ejan Insanity. After a while Hisyam joined us. After gym , we head down to Boon Lay Shopping centre to play DOTA. LOL! It's was fun lar. Funny things happened.

After that walk home and reach around 4plus. Then head down to the pitch for Training. It's was a short training not as long as usual. Not fun. I wasn't feeling tired at all. Then at night went to Boon lay again to eat with Haiqal and Hakim. At night , Fatin told me the secret! It was so merepek! hahaha! I was expecting something else. Alright , i got home around 8.30pm. After i clean myself , i went to my Grandparent's house just across the street.

Ther were watching the malay horror film called ' SANTAU '! My small cousins were like hugging each other and kept screaming!!!! It's so high pitch and i was like TSK! The scene wasn't even scary at all and they said it was scary. We watch with all the bright lights on somemore! Crazy sia they all. What a marshmallow la.

Hmm.. i didn't went out today. It was a boring typical day for me. It rain today! Is that good? Oh yes! I nowadays feel very weird le. I don't know what i'm feeling. So weird.

Oh yes i realised that i've fallen in love with her not because of her LOOKS but because of her IMAN! First time sey. Usually right i would fall for looks then her whatever la but she was different. She made me open up my heart. Well i don't know , i feel more in love with allah because of her. She's inspiring u know. Hmm... Whatever it is , i don't think she would have the same feeling as me towards me. She's like 2 yrs older than me and i'm so out of her league. Whatever it is , i'm leaving it all to God. He knows best :)

2010-02-21T10:58:00.001+08:00

I hate morning time. I've always had nightmare the night before. It only occurs when i have problems. I hate sey.. Wake up keep being so moody but it's so weird. I don't want i want tp be happy. k la bye

2010-02-19T23:17:00.003+08:00

There are many things in life i don't know about. I may be fooled by others without myself knowing. The world is full of secrets. Only God knows everything. Everytime i prey to god , i feel like crying but tears just won't come out from my eyes anymore. Lately i've been making myself closer to the mosque. I could see her, be with her. Astarfirllah hal azim. Ya allah tuhanku. Ampunkan dosaku. Why is it so hard to be good and so easy to be bad. I've done so many mistakes in my life. No one is perfect except for prophet Muhammad S.A.W. As time passes by, we're all getting closer to death. It's so hard to influence my friend to go to the mosque. Ya allah give me the best and only the best.

You know what, i think i'm in love or is this just another stupid crush of mine. Tsk! Is seventeen too young to have a relationship? I'm always have been fussy to find my soulmate. My mom wants me to find someone who is pious , wears the tudung and i want to find someone that have the characteristics that my moms want and also pretty. Has god sent me the right one? Well i don't know. I'm just going to keep it a secret for now. Wait till the time comes which is i don't know when.

Somehow today , i'm not really in a mood. It's raining and i'm late for class. I'm all soak in the rain. i really don't know why i'm so down today. Ya allah... i really need ur help. I'm not strong enough to stay good. :( Today when we zikir in class , somehow my heart felt like i don't know. It's like my heart is open. astarfirllah...

I feel so lonely. No one to talk to. I keep going out alone. Always Alone. I know god is with me but it's just not the same.

2010-02-18T21:09:00.002+08:00

I felt so tired today and yesterday. I'm not sure why but i think i keep going to the gym often. I slept like a pig today. Slept four times sey. Anyway in the afternoon, me , Satria and Amirul went down to Funan IT Mall for a job interview but when we got there, they say that it is full! WHAT THE ****!

Anyway today i didn't feel quite well. MY stomach feels abit weird. I think i'm gonna fall sick soon. Need to fight! Oh yaya! I want join a Martial Arts CCA when i get into POLY!!! YOHOOO!!!

2010-02-16T08:05:00.001+08:00

Woke up early at 6.30am today for morning prayers as usual. I didn't went back to sleep. I don't really feel like sleeping again. I surfed the net. Went back to friendster to see my old photos. Damn I really look childish. As I was browsing thru the pics , flashback sparks my mind. I really miss those time. If only I could go back in time. I'm going to save my friendster photo and upload it up on facebook.

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2010-02-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! The movie Valentine's day is out today. Haven't watch but i was planning to watch. There's a few movie that is in my mind.

1. Percy Jackson amd the lightning thief
2. Valentine's Day
3. Tooth Fairy
4. 14 Blades
5. And many more to come

Alright today is Valentine's DAy. I have no dates for today. Well... Nevermind let's change the topic. Anyway my family and i went to Little India to have our Brunch. The streets were so congested. Mom bought me a watch that cost $79 which i have to take good care for 3 years! anyway i'm not use to wearing watch. Just hope it last.

Next i saw someone very familiar at mustafar centre. I was kind of wanting to achknowledge but luckily i didn't. Guessed she was right , her sister really have a common face or i'm just missing her loadz. Well i dont know. Alright stop thinking about her before i get emotional about it.

Anyway went to Granpa house after that. Watch this bollywood movie called ' Ghajini'. It was an awesome movie. Very sad too. You guys should really watch! Amir Khan and Asin Thottumkal are the hero and heroin. The heroin is pretty!

Anyway i got a plan. I'll make myself invisible to be super visible the next time ppl sees me. Only me & God understands what i'm trying to say. Anyway tomorrow i'm going to East Coast Park with Family. Hope We have FUN !!!!

2010-02-13T19:17:00.001+08:00

I have one word to say. "aaarrrgh " my leg is so in pain. I don't know why. I can't bloody run! I really need to go for a leg massage. Sigh! Anyway suddenly I feel so lonely. What to do. Anyway I want to wish to all my Chinese friends a happy and prosperous Chinese new year! Gong xi gong xi!

I need to control the beast.
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2010-02-11T20:26:00.003+08:00

I'm going to be SEVENTEEN this year. Come to think of it , i'm getting older. Soon i'll reach TWENTY! This year will be my first year in poly and my last year of poly is 19. I can't wait for National Service. I want to get into the Army. Not CIVIL DEFENCE OR THE POLICE. As most of you may know , i'm more of the aggresive type of person. I need to be mentally tough and also physically strong. NS is the place.

I mean if there would really be a war, i would willingly and bravely fight my enemy with no regrets. I would rather die for my country , for my family , for my friends and for those who i love. War isn't a fun thing. Let's all hope there's no war. World peace dude! But again we have to train and prepare ourselves. Man i'm getting old.

Yes i want a driving license! Noo but i need to be 21 to take the license. damn it.

2010-02-10T19:35:00.002+08:00

I had a dream of my true love the night before. In the dream , I was walking with her holding her hands strolling somewhere. We talk and laugh. I made her smile. I hug her too! I really miss her so much but what can i do. She's dead. I can't bring her back to life. No matter what she is still in my heart. She will never be erase from my mind. Whenever i'm quiet , means i'm thinking of her. I don't need her photo. I can see her through my heart. She's the sweetest GF ever but why does she have to go so soon. I truly miss her. If only i were given a second chance , i swear I will take real good care of her but all hope is lost. She's now my imagination. The only way i could see her is in my sleep. How i wish i could sleep forever just to see her and be with her. Only god knows how i feel about her. She's everything to me. I trade the heaven just for her. HEhs sounds dumb but this is what she meant to me. She's my heaven. I just wish i could touch her. If only ...

In Loving Memory
D.A.R
3rd March 2009 - 8th May 2009
I will love her forever
She will stay in me forever
Goodbye my Lover
P.S I LOVE YOU

2010-02-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

Today is Lonely Tuesday for me! Hahaha! Anyway i went to sent my grandpa to NUH for his eye test. Hmm... Hospital , is that where i'm going to work in the future? Dr Dann? Hmmm... Cool uhs? Anyway after that i went to the Gym alone. Hahaha! Most of my friends are working or either that they are plain lazy. =P Then after gyming i went to City Hall to the Matrep place. LOL! No lar i went to peninsular plaza underground. Bought this Mat rep shirt. LOL! I hate stereotypes man about me. ahaha About others i don't care la. Yah then i eat beef fried rice there. So many changes there. It's been a long time since i step in to that Matrep world.

Oh yea my feet is itchy man! Feel like running and kick kick kick ball!!! Can't wait for saturday! Hope the gate's open

2010-02-08T22:42:00.002+08:00

Played soccer in the morning! Hahaha! Everyone was almost an hour late. Cool! Maybe because the night before there was a game on Chelsea and Arsenal. It was an awesome match. Chelsea 2 - Arsenal 0. Damn! Chelsea is back at the top of the table. I think today i played better than usual. Scored more than 6 goals. I lost count. Was super tired at the end of the game. Played my heart out.

Anyway went to eat with Arif and mom. His mom treat me drink and food. So kind of her. Thank you so much. Anyway went out to suntec city. Damn it's a super big place. I look so small. Hahaha! Farhan and Arif succesfully got a job at Carefoure. I want work but feeling lazy. After that me and Arif went shopping. Bought 2 shirts that cost $15 in total. It was a sale.

Hmm... Oh yah not to mention the weather is blazing , scorching , infernal hot! Was sweating all the way. AArrhh yes my flu too came back. Maybe too dusty or i'm too tired. Can't wait for this Saturday soccer training. I feel like buying an Adidas boot because my shooting and kicking of the ball is better with an Adidas shoe.

Alright my plan is after i send my Grandpa to the Hospital , i want to go to the Gym. No matter what must go! Must Train!

2010-02-06T20:11:00.001+08:00

You know what. I have decided to leave it all to god. I'm not giving up but maybe I'm just tired of chasing. I just want the best and only god knows who. I'm leaving it all to god. I hope I'll find her soon.

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2010-02-05T11:07:00.002+08:00

Tonight i'm going for a BBQ at the mosque. Today after my friday prayers , i'm going to the gym. I need to burn my spirit while it last. I'm on fire. Haha If you know what i mean.

I can't wait for tomorrow's soccer practice. I can't wait to run run run! Want to unleash my thing. I don't know. I feel kind of weird lately. SInce yesterday i guess. There's this feeling in me which is so determine. I don't know. ahaha!

2010-02-04T20:45:00.003+08:00

Nowadays i so hot tempered! What's wrong with me? Cool down... I was able to control my anger. Maybe everything around me happens so sudden and not the way i expect them to be. Everyone's changing.

This saturday! I can't wait! I want to run run run!!! but my leg hasn't fully recovered. Sigh

2010-02-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

Damn i'm hyperventilating! I think i too stress sey. My bronchitis getting worst i guess. Nowadays very difficult to breathe. Doctor says stress is one of the cause that makes my sickness worst. Stay calm dann... breathe slowly relax

Anyway i felt kind of happy chatting with her. SOmehow i'm happy to if see's happy. I mean i just want her to be happy i guess. She's my soul , my world , my life.

2010-02-02T21:32:00.001+08:00

FUCK U LA DAD! Irritating sak! ISSSHHH! !!! AFFEcTING MY LIFE LA ALL THIS PROBLEM! I'm tired of living already

2010-02-02T19:36:00.003+08:00

Yes you're right. I'm a monster. I'm a monster in disguise alright! I'm a monster who's trying to cage this beast within me. I seriously don't know why i'm born this way. I know there's something in me that not much people see now. Sigh the truth is no one really understands me. Nevermind no point babbling. No one's reading. No one care. My friends are all gone. They have their own life now.

It's been a long time since 8 march 2009. The day where i felt like i lost everything. It's hard gaining everything back. Step by step slowly i recover but even though scars are left on my heart. Too many scars now. It's been a year since i broke up with her and still i haven't move on! Tsk! I can get rid of her in my heart! Arrhh! Why is there tears falling down!

If i said i was okay. I was lying. Every dream i had about you was a nightmare when i woke up because it makes me feel that i was really with you. It gives me the feeling of that false hope. I'm seriously still LOVE YOU! TRULY LOVE YOU! D: If only you could see what's in my heart. Please come back...

2010-02-02T11:43:00.002+08:00

ARRRGHH I'm so fucking frustrated and sad! DISSAPOINTED! CIBAI ARRHHH!

Usually i pick up my guitar and strum some random chords , sing out what's i feel or in my heart but today i don't have the mood to sing. Just strum and strum but no melody. Seriously what are friends for man! Got new friends like this already. SIAL LA!!! Why am i so angry sey! Tsk! I'm like a volcano which has not erupt for a very very long time sey. I'll leave it to god.

2010-02-02T00:13:00.001+08:00

Today is really one of my worst days ever. Early in the morning woke up at 8am. Mom starts to nag about eating breakfast and clothes didn't keep in closet. Very irritating sia! I really hate when people insist me to do things. They can tell me once and I'll do it! I really hate it. So what I've got an attitude. It runs in the family!

I went for breakfast outside alone. I really don't feel like eating at that point of time. Sigh I was so frustrated! Early morning nag nag! Arrrhh! Can shut up!!!
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2010-02-01T02:07:00.003+08:00

Today was great! In the morning , me and family went for religious class. Then after that went for BRUNCH ( Breakfast + Lunch ). Syazz extra join us. LOL! Anyway the plan in the afternoon was that to watch movie but end up everyone got something on last minute. I accidentally fell asleep for Syazz to reply me the timing. End up he's the only one at Lakeside MRT waiting for us. WAH First time early sey that guy. Hahahaha! But anyway he arived at 3pm. I woke up at 4.30pm because of my hp vibrating and he kept calling my home.

Eventually i went to meet him to have my late lunch. Was damn hungry when i woke up. Anyway after that called Sharizal to hang out with us for awhile. Hisyam was with him so he also join us too. Hahaha Old school man. Hanged out at the playground outside Shuqun pri. It was memories. Had loads of fun talking crap and recalling about the past. It was hilarious.

Anyway at night around 9pm , Satria , Syazz and me went to Jurong Lake Park to 'Photoshoot' but end up we take shots of landscape. We had conversations about our ex and lovers. I mean it's like we kind of let go of our feelings for awhile. There were loads of couples there so it's like we're not the only one.

I seriously miss her when talking about her. I felt like crying sey recalling and sharing my exprience with RAB with my frenz. Somehow i still do care about her although i kept scolding her and all that but people around me knows that i still have feelings for her even though i deny. It's okay. The real RAB is deep inside my heart. The RAB that i knew. Not the RAB that i don't. She's the best GF i've ever had. ;D

We talk and talk till midnight. Finally our parents called to go home. We went our seperate ways. I had to walk a longer distance as compared to SYazz and Satria. It was scary man to walk in the dark and beside tall trees. Somemore it's like a ghost town because there was no one.

When i got home , i on the TV to watch Man u vs Arsenal! Final Score MAn u 3 Arsenal 1! Great game! GLORY GLORY GLORY MAN U!

Alright update about my recent match against TEAM CHALLENGE FC. 10 - 1! We loss of course. I mean at first my mindset was that it was easy but my other teammates don't think so because they are veteran. Seriously we got trashed by them. I can hear my heartbeat man! We lost to them physically man. I really need to workout my body and my STAMINA! The problem is no matter how much i eat , it's hard for me to grow fat!!!! In the match , i didn't expect that the tempo of my opponent would be so fast man. I can hear my heartbeat for the first time! I mean it's so loud man! It's like it's knocking against my chest or something. I had a muscle cram though during the last 5 mins of the game. Had a bruise on my knee. But i'm fine. Father is joining us for training next week. He somehow wants to keep fit. LOL!

2010-01-29T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today didn't went for work. My bronchitis la. So hard to breathe man. Also that job! Ask boss to fuck off la. Anyway i cut hair today. Hahaha! Short! Yea i mean ok la. Something different for a change. Fringe above eyebrow. How many years sey nvr cut fringe above eyebrow. Anyway can't wait for my hair to grow a bit longer. Gonna style my hair soon. And dye a bit.. Yea tomorrow soccer match! And going to grandpeeps house! Can't wait to see them! Wish me luck for the match

Today went to Vivo with Haiqal and sharizal. Actually i wanted to go SP to explore but they don't want because it's not their school! hahaha!

2010-01-22T09:35:00.001+08:00

Nowadays keep having Random dreams! A few days ago i dream i was with Avril Lavigne. And somehow i'm meeting her at England. Then Taylor Swift was sad about me being with Avril Lavigne! What dream rite?! Then i dreamt about my frens all! LOL! What is my brain thinking?!

2010-01-19T20:18:00.002+08:00

Nowadays i kept getting tired and i meant really tired. Super duper tired. Keep waking up late. Maybe i slept late. Anyway today i went out to the gym after that i got tired. I don't know why. I didn't really workout much because i was lazy. I wore contact lenses the whole day. Is it because of my eye that makes me tired? Can be one of the reasons. Oh yes nowadays i also keep getting hungry.

Anyway tomorrow i've got work! So lazy sey go far2 work. I wished i've got my own vehicle and a license. Easy for me to travel. I think i'm gonna find a job at Jp. Somewhere close to home. Some more i'm looking for a long term job so yea. If it's far , it would make life difficult for me. Can't wait for pay although it's not much. Most of the time , i work only for 2 days a week and like 5-7 hours like that. It's quite little although the pay is 5.50 per hour but still suck man! I'm going to find a retail job at JP and not FnB! I'm so not gona take that thyphoid JAB!!! Fuck that jab uhs'!

2010-01-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

Today is one of the most tiring day of my life! Played soccer in the morning. I guessed i'd improve my stamina and my skills. Anyway both my legs was injured and it's bad injured. Felt pain when walking around. =( Yaa just pain and i fell down. Had a cut on my leg. So scary. I hate blood man. =(

2010-01-16T13:11:00.002+08:00

I don't hate her. I just can't do it. I'm just not ready to start again. I'm not going to loose her friendship like i did before. I just can't . I'm just not ready. I hope you'll understand. I am really in a deep confusion. What was i thinking. Sigh I don't want to be in this situation.

2010-01-16T10:19:00.002+08:00

I am so confused. Nvm let's changed the subject. I don't want to think about it. Yesterday me and friends went to bugis juntion to watch a movie at 9.40pm. It was random really. The movie was called Daybreaker. It was not bad after all. After all Syazrul was the one treating me. I've only got $2 in my wallet at that time.

Anyway i went window shopping around bugis but i didn't bought anything because i did not have the money. How i wish i've got money. I need to buy new shirts , alter my jeans and many more.

I can't wait for my posting results. Hope i got into Singapore Poly!

2010-01-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

What's wrong with my PC?! So slow and it's like something wrong! Tsk everytime mom touches my pc something will go wrong and when my pc got problem always blame me. Anyway i'm so damn tired. MY third day at work. Boss say i'm catching up quite fast. Yea!! But need to be more better! Hahaha! Must be hardworking worker.

2010-01-13T00:10:00.001+08:00

Woah O level results! I've got 13! still need to think of the 12 choices.

anyway here's what i've been thinking about

1st - Aerospace engineer at SP S88

2nd - Aerpspace tech at NP N65

3rd - Biotechnology at SP S72/N49 / Bioengineering SP S58

4th - Biomedical engineering NP N60

5th - Electrical & Electronics engineer SP S99

6th - Electrical engineering NP N43

7th - Environmetal & water tech SP S52

8th - enviromental & water tech N74

9th - Clean Energy management NP S45

10th - Common engineering programme SP S40

11th - Sustainable urban design & engineering N89

12th - Mechanical engineering SP S91

this is a rough thought.. any comments plz tell me

2010-01-07T22:43:00.001+08:00

Alright I went to rp today for an open house. It was fun. Aww the students there wanna take pic with me. I'm so touch yea! I mean I feel like a star. Will upload the photos on facebook soon. Anyway next next Thursday got interview at bugis comic shop. Go so many interview but never get job. Currently I'm working as a retail assisatant but haven't officially start working. Tmr actually got training but my fren didn't go so I also postponed the training to next week wed . Alright peeps that's all

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2010-01-05T12:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my mind was blank. Today my mind is full of thoughts! I don't know what's depressing me.

Possibilities :

1 -maybe i'm afaraid for my o level results
2 -i'm jobless
3 -I'm pennyless

I really need a job badly!!! At first i plan to work as a retail assistant because i've already tried working in the FnB section two years ago. Furthermore i've got to take the thyphoid injection and to be frank , i'm afraid of injection more than blood. The last time i took the injection i fainted! Yea can you imagine that what a pussy i am. If you guys got any info on job enquiries please contact me.